Life
Is so very weird now. I guess it’s always weird, but I just feel really…disconnected. That’s probably the best way I could explain it. Nothing feels real anymore. The days go by too fast. Nothing makes sense to me anymore. I don’t know what I do with my time anymore, but it’s not what I want to do. I work more than I’ve ever worked in my life. I hate it. I hate having to go to a job every day. God I’ve said all of this before. I don’t even know why I write blogs anymore. They’re always the same. I have nothing interesting to say. I have nothing interesting to offer the world. I’m not unique. I’m not special. I blend in with everything. No one talks to me at work. Not too many people talk to me outside of work. I don’t know why I persist. Nothing I do matters.
Im really sad that it took my so long to finally read this…but I do what you to know that you are some one really special. You will never know how much you mean to us and Im sorry I dont let you know more often. You are one of the most unique people I have ever met in my whole life…please dont forget that…dont let your true self get lost. Its still in there, I think you just dont believe in your self any more. I really need to see you…Its like we dont know each other any more, even though we used to be like best friends. I know Im not a very good friend and dont keep in contact, but I want to fix that. I love you! you are like family to me and I really dont want to lose you. please make sure we start talking again, Ill also do what I can to make sure we reconnect. sorry this is so long. just had to tell you what I think.