Think of my blogs as gems

They don’t come around very often, but when they do you feel like the luckiest person in the world.  Ok, so that was cocky.  I apologize.  My blogs aren’t that great and I know that.  I think it all comes down to my life just not being that interesting.  I would absolutely LOVE to be able to travel around the country and write a different blog in a different state every day.  Not only would that be an ideal situation in remedying the mundaneness of my blogs, but I’d get to take pictures too.  I’m so sick of taking pictures of the same Utah buildings…the same Utah people…the same Utah everything.  I’ve lived here for far too long and I crave change far too much for this to be satisfactory.  I shouldn’t be happy with mediocrity, but I find myself more and more indifferent every day.  I just wish something exciting would happen.  Like maybe a bomb could blow up downtown and it would take out like 5 buildings.  Mmmm, that would be awesome.

When I think back to how I got here, my brain draws a blank.  I just want an identity.  I want to have a DEFINITE series of events that’s landed me at this point in my life.  I just feel like I’m here.  I don’t like that feeling.  I want a path.  Blah.  It’s annoying.  I’ve probably typed these exact words before.  I wouldn’t remember.

I want to be attacked by elves…or at least elf-like creatures…just randomly…while I’m at work.  Can you imagine being in the middle of your job and being attacked by elves?  What would everyone else think?  It would be amazing.  I want it to be me against 10 or 11 of them…make it challenging.  I’d be more worried about them biting my ankles than anything.  I hate those little dogs that can’t do anything but bite your ankles.  Rrrrrgh, that’s SO annoying.  I just want to tell them to get a job and help support their family instead of laying around all day yip-yapping and zip-zapping all over the place.  I wont stand for it.

I’ve been trying to eat healthier lately.  I do this about 4 times a year…and it never really lasts.   I’m REALLY going to try to keep it going this time.  It’s always expensive restaurants that make me give in.  That’s one downside to making a good amount of money…you spend a lot.  Expensive food just tastes better.. or maybe I eat more because I feel bad for paying so much…either way, it needs to stop.  I’m so horribly out of shape and it’s driving me crazy.  This month is almost over and I still haven’t started a steady routine for exercise.  I think once I’m stable again with money I’ll get an elliptical for the apartment.  I’ve been meaning to get one for awhile, but I’ve been broke, so yeah.  I’d be much more comfortable working out at home.  It’s cheaper than a gym, and you don’t have to worry about stupid people judging you.  That’s the lame thing about gyms.  There’s always those meatheads walking around that look at people like me and laugh.  They may have muscles, but I have the money to buy guns.  Who wins now? 

I very desperately need to start saving money.  I’m in a situation now where I’m letting my bank rape me because there’s nothing I can do about it.  My insurance payment is 170 a month, which is already expensive.  They took out the 170 on tyhe 17th of this month.  I overdrafted by 4 DOLLARS.  And now I owe my bank $200.  I’ve called them and tried to fight it, but “Unfortunately there’s nothing we can do.”  Fuck you.  Reverse the charges.  How does that sound?  Solved my problem.  So now I’ll end up paying almost 400 dollars for on insurance payment.  I hate the United States.  If you want to know why, read my post about Sicko by Michael Moore.  You’ll understand…either that or watch the movie.  It’s very worth it.

There’s a girl in my life and she’s amazing to me.  We’re coming up on two years together.  I couldn’t ask for anything better.  She’s everything I’ve ever wanted and so much more.   She’s beautiful, smart, funny, and cuddly.  Who could want anything else.  Last night we had a conversation about antonyms.  I mean really, who does that?  IT was amazing.  I’ve never been so comfortable being myself.  I think I might just keep her.

Hope you all are well.

.moses.

~ by mosesport on January 23, 2008.